about me

some personal bits. me sharing my experience as a human being.

i am

my name is Silviana Amethyst. I am

a computational and visualizing mathematician
a professor, teacher, researcher
a maker, 3d printer, modeler, and hacker. i'll take it apart.
a bicyclist, not "seriously" but for fun, health, and to replace driving
a smeller of my food before i eat -- very slowly and almost never to full
someone who feels anxiety at capitalization
an atheist who demands evidence
a great cook
a tight hand holder
a transgender woman
a feminist who continues to learn what it means to be a feminist
willing to apologize when i fuck up
not on any social media
a free thinker and questioner of everything
a c++ programmer who loves templates and error messages from the compiler
an Eagle scout -- trustworthy, loyal, helpful, friendly, courteous, kind, obedient, cheerful, thrifty, brave, clean, and reverent. ok, i kinda fail at a few of those, but they're good aspirations.
dedicated to affirmative consent
finally growing toward who i've always wanted to be

In reverse chronological order

useless meaty fuckhole -- a reflection on a phrase i received in a piece of trans hatemail
guys is lazy -- an argument that the use of guys is linguistic laziness
reflections, 1.75 years in -- meandering thoughts
loving myself -- a love poem to me
questions -- perspectives on people asking me questions "as a trans woman"
guys is not gender neutral -- i'm not a guy; stop misgendering me, please
gender timeline -2018 -- a graphical depiction of my gender through this date, lovingly prepared using all my diagrammatic skills in Inkscape
accepting that I will be forever deadnamed in my publications -- a perspective on knowing that my deadname will always be with me
my pronouns -- a little piece about she/her/hers

social media is challenging -- an essay on how much i struggle with social media of all forms, why i don't use it, and how i request you use it when you're around me